I have decided on 'no contact', and to put him on messenger's ignore, even if he insisted (and expected) to still talk. I dont think I can think of him just as a friend, it's always going to be something more with him. I dont want to hear about his dates, and ive been reading about open relationships, and i dont think that's for me.

I feel, strangely, at peace. Not hurt. Not lonely. At least not for now. There's a certain sense of calm when you know you've made the right decision for yourself.

Cheers to better days ahead.