Entries for October, 2018

He helped us move things to our new studio today.

My favorite bit:

Me *indicating the box with all the heavy plates*: Yan, mabigat yan

He lifts it up to his shoulders without any shred of difficulty; says "Talaga?" and gives me the cheekiest smile. 


Posted by chronicwind on October 3, 2018 at 03:16 AM | catch a feather

Consistent karat is nice and all but... I'm starting to feel empty. 


I'm beginning to talk with others again (messaged my ex, even), and I feel no guilt. Well wala naman talaga dapat since di kami exclusive. I think naggcrave ako now for emotional connection, a connection that I don't feel any right asking for, from him. Because we didn't start out as friends, and parang ang unfair since I'm moving anyway.

A person can be perfect for you on paper, but that doesn't guarantee a connection. This is something I keep learning over and over. 

Haay what to do with all these emptiness

Posted by chronicwind on October 10, 2018 at 11:07 PM | catch a feather

I like having choices!

I just hate making them

Posted by chronicwind on October 24, 2018 at 05:07 PM | catch a feather

Thoughts during the break of dawn, bursts of sunlight peaking throught the gap in the window curtains, illuminating his silhouette -- backlit side view of his sleeping face, his semi-beard turning gold where the sun hits it... I 'm lying beside him, strumming my fingers on his chesthair :

I know we're just passers-by in each other's lives right now but what if...? what if I stayed...? 

Because I could really get used to this

Posted by chronicwind on October 29, 2018 at 10:20 AM | catch a feather
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