sad realization about self
I'm really fucking boring, so I compensate by being kind and generous. :(
Seryoso, wala akong drama-drama sa buhay. Wala akong sob story. I was born with a silver spoon and ran away with it. I like myself, pero shet minsan iniisip ko I'm the most average person on earth, na kung pagsasama-samahin lahat ng traits na pwedeng magkaroon ang isang tao at ididistribute back to everyone in equal proportions, everybody will be an example of me. I'm neither here nor there; I'm right smack in the middle of the bell curve. Kumbaga sa mga survey forms where 1 is least and 5 is most, I'm a number 3. Neutral lang.
Pero kung 'most average' ka, edi hindi ka average lang? Hahahaha sige i-contradict ko pa sarili ko.
Anyway ang point naman talaga nito is, I'm scared that someone will figure this out about me and nope the fuck out of my company. Insecurity ko talaga 'to; right up there with intelligence. Stupid and boring, these are the negative traits I keep deeply hidden in my identity that I do not want to admit to myself. And these are the things I need to let go.