Hahhh. So, my short-lived romance has ended.

I wonder if I should've negotiated my terms instead of ending it altogether. I tried messaging other people, but it didn't feel as fun and as natural as it was with him. Why did I end it nga? Was I just running away again? Naiyak rin ako ng very slight. Naalala ko nung grade 1 ako, inaway ko yung kaklase ko, tas ako yung umiyak.

I should've let him show me the 6.2. But it's fine. 

Were men this boring to talk to before? Maybe I should allow myself a few days off from this whole goal-setting thing.

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Papalapit na ang Japan trip, pero wala pa ring nadadagdag sa pera ko, puro bawas lang. I don't want to sell my stocks sana. Sumali kaya ako sa game show? Ugh, still not enough. What should I do.

Nag self-publish ako ng coloring books online. Kanina ko lang natanggap yung notice na napublish na. I made them during weekends. I made 3, yet only 2 notifications came. I wonder what happened to the other one. I'm working on another one. Ipo post nalang. Was too lazy to open the laptop today.

I was at Watsons earlier. Ngayon ko lang nalaman na 45 pesos pala ang isang sachet ng hair mask. 45 pesos for 1 time use?? Omg. I used to not mind the price. Nagulat nga ako na yung ginagamit ko palang bulak for my face e 99 pesos. Jeez, magkano lang yung totoong bulak.

Ugh, I can't even buy lip gloss. Nakakaiyak. Hahaha.

Haaaaah.

Sa totoo lang, hindi pa rin ako nagsisisi for resigning. Pero sana soon, I can get back to my old lifestyle. 

Haaaaah.

I miss that pervert. Lol. I wish I get to meet someone like him again. Ang weird, I actually ask for someone with the same specifications, yung height, age difference, and even the 6.2! Hindi rin naman talaga ako nag sisisi. But I'm thinking maybe I should've negotiated my terms instead of just easily letting go. I mean, he's not a bad guy, and we have chemistry,  and I do like him. Pero okay lang. I mean, anong gagawin ko?

Haaaaah.

Andami pang more pressing things to do. I stopped doing everything else na hindi pasok sa 4 goals na naset ko for 6 months. Halfway through April, pero wala parin talagang progress.

I pray for things to get so much better very very very soon.

Posted by cinderellaareus on April 16, 2024 at 06:36 PM in 月曜日 | catch a feather
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