He was sick yesterday, and it made me feel useless that im not able to take care of him physically, just through virtual massages and feel good images of puppies. It hurts to not be able to help (tho he did say that i helped a lot and he appreciated it) but it pains me to not actually be there for him. Im starting to think that he really should date a local, someone who can take care of him when he's sick, he deserves it, but then im selfish and i want him all to myself and i want to be the one to take care of him and this selfishness makes me feel guilty.

Haay ang hirap nga naman po talaga