So may naglalako ng walis tambo outside our house at bumili si tatay. I'm inexplicably happy??? Ansaya saya na may matino na kaming walis huhuhuhahaha

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A very good friend is getting married and! getting a scholarship to Australia!!! Happy for this gurrrl she deserves it so much waaah ansaya din talaga ng second-hand happiness ano poooo

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Day 3 of Heartbreak no.3 (all the same guy HAHAHA) and I feel... normal. Light, even! I'm back to my original move to Dumaguete plans and I am so excited, way way more excited about this than I ever was at the thought of moving halfway across the world to be with him.

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I let the tears fall yesterday, in the bathroom, during work hours. Afterwards I installed Tinder again, and saw messages from this Pakistani naudlot karat (HAHAHA) who I thought ghosted me. Turns out he was really sick, and was asking for forgiveness. I really like this guy so nawala yung sadness ko instantly. Nakakatakot yung bigla kong pagturn around ng feelings. One moment I was crying of sadness and the next I'm super kilig for this other guy? Haha jusq validation lang talaga ang kailangan ko ano, validation that someone likes me.

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I guess I just needed to mourn the loss of the whatcould'vebeens. Just for a day. But that loss just opens up more whatcouldbe's. And now, it's time to celebrate that. :)