This schengen visa application is giving me nightmares, as in literally. The other day I woke up sweating, since according to the dream, I received a - what i thought to be a rejection, but then apparently it was a request to submit additional documents, such as an x-ray ??? huhu basta malabo, and i felt relieved when i woke up that it's not true (at least not yet).

Haay nakakaanxious talaga siya kahit na as of this time alam ko wala naman na ko talagang magagawa about it. I just need to patiently wait. But then from time to time it crosses my mind and I read rejection horror stories and namamatayan ako ng loob and i know i have to prepare myself for when the result comes, but lawrddd i don't want to deal with a rejection pls :( Andami-dami ko nang pantasya about this EU trip i have an extreme need to make it a reality.

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I miss him so much I need a hug :( 

stressed, stressed, needlessly stressed

Look, I just want to snuggle my face against his beard; why must it take 10000 pesos and a torturous wait

Sana ano, conspiracy lang yung surveys kung saan mataas ang admin bets para makapante sila, pero pagdating ng elections BOOM! Landslide victory for otso diretso + colmenares + ka leody...

UNIVERSE PLS

PHILIPPINES PLS

Facebook memories showed me a photo of my friend, in 2013, riding a bike. That time she was newly out of her mission (mormon) and wala pa siyang other ganaps in life. But now, she has a family, a loving husband with his own business, a one-year old child, a home in the province, a good job... I can't help but compare our lives and feel like "bat parang walang nangyayari sa buhay ko???" That photo was 6 years ago and andami na nyang napagdaanan (even a failed engagement!)... Whereas me... i feel like after 4 years at my job im just an okay photographer at best... I still don't have enough savings and i'm still living in my parent's house and...??? anez???? wala pa kong nararating talaga i feel like such a failure

Na-trigger ako because deep down I guess i just want what she has: her own family 

it's self-pity day for me today i hate it

I'm sick

of myself

I want to crawl out of my skin

NAAPPROVE NA VISA KOOOOOO I CAN BREATHE

wild wild WILD 

I'M ON AN APPROVED VISA HIGH

I can breathe, and -

Oh how i love the feeling of breathing

Peak procrastination yung nagbabasa ka ng twitter sa desktop and then u look down at your phone, at twitter din yung nakaopen

ano ba bea

https://www.nytimes.com/2019/05/01/smarter-living/overcoming-time-management-regret.html?action=click&module=MoreInSection&pgtype=Article&region=Footer&contentCollection=More%20From%20The%20Times

ahhh pain

we meet again

masarap magdrama sa belhika anez

“Love who you love while you have them. That’s all you can do. Let them go when you must. If you know how to love, you’ll never run out.” —Ann Brashares, My Name is Memory

THIS THIS THIS THIS THIS

I need to read this over and over

Let them go when you must. If you know how to love, you’ll never run out

You will never run out

Woohh kaya ko pala talaga ano

To have continuous meaningless sex without investing my feelings

Like

Ready na ako iwan sya at. Any. Time. 

Nang alam kong hindi ako talo

Ang liberating ng feeling. Medyo nakakatakot lang coz alk sex might be meaningless na for me