Naooverwhelm na naman ako with self-doubt I MEAN GHORL WALA KANG PERA AT WALA KANG PANAHON PARA SA MGA GANYANG PAGDUDUDA

Inaaway ako sa isang expats facebook group and I just want to reply to them HAAY NAKAKAPAGOD KAYO AMPAPANGET NIYO

but syempre civil si sizt

gusto ko na umuwi sa ghent

ahaha wuw? taga dun ka teh? :))

In  2 years, self. 2 years.

This year's guiding quote: What you allow will continue.

Lesson from your montessori upbringing: in your own pace, at your own time.

Ang masaya din sa fact na sa dumaguete ka nakatira: it dissuades fb friends whom you have not spoken to in YEARS from selling you life insurance

Tama na, mindvalley!!! Kung may pera lang talaga ako papatulan ko yang course na yan

Nagreply si barcejowa: 2 words -- breadcrumbs, I know -- but I'll take it

I've been feeling bouts of self-hatred and self-doubt, as in intense: for about a month last year I cried myself to sleep -- hating who I am and who I was and who I will become -- it wasn't until I moved to Dumaguete and had other things on my mind that it stopped. I felt it again on my recent vacation to Manila for the holidays, and it stayed with me when I returned back home in Duma.

Yesterday I was video editing this lecture about "becoming fully human" and the speaker was going on about how you are undervaluing yourself if you only see the negative in yourself, and how this low self-esteem hinders growth and how this kind of relationship to self is ultimately unhealthy. As a person who takes great pride in my health (my immune system is something I'm so grateful for; I've never been confined in a hospital, fevers last one day tops, I have occasional cough and colds but nothing serious), something clicked when I re-framed this self-hatred as a health issue and not as a crushing failure of my being human. This self-hatred is useless: it doesn't help my productivity, it doesn't help my relationships, and no one cares anyway but me -- this self-hatred rooted in the belief that I've squandered away all my privileges and so I'm an ultimate failure in life -- it's all in my head. No one else believes this. Not one. Only me and my self-pity party. 

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I'm starting an IF diet with a 12pm-8pm eating window. I hope i make it last this time.

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I don't believe in hell, I don't believe in heaven, I don't believe in karma. I don't believe in God. But I believe in people. And I believe that this life, this is it, what you do in this lifetime, you have to be accountable IN THIS LIFETIME. It's people who have the power to demand for accountability, to demand. Not God. Not karma. Not the threat that you'll go to hell. 

And this is why we need people to be vigilant, and to hold officials accountable. They did a wrong thing in this lifetime, justice must be served in this lifetime.

Just as ang pinakamahirap gisingin ay ang nagpapanggap na tulog, ang pinakamahirap na patalinuhin ay ang nagtatanga-tangahan. 

The idiocy is deliberate kaya ang hirap labanan.

sinendan ko siya ng... something tas sabi niya, "thx (kiss emoticon)" and nOW IM WEAK

kelan kaya ako magsasawa

"Let your hopes, not your hurts, shape your future." —Robert H. Schuller via @momentumdash

ano kayang feeling ng to be with someone and have zero doubts

sasaya ba kaya ako ever

soooo yung ncov positive bumisita dito sa duma and so i wonder hanggang kelan ako dapat magkulong dito sa bahay? huhu i cant afford to get sick as in literally i can't afford it kasi wala na kong pera in lyf

meanwhile ambango nitong niluluto ko gujab self

patulugin niyo na lang siya. as in like... forever

AAACKKK FINAL EPS NA NG BOJACK

!1111!!!