I

Am

Terribly

Lonely

“Love who you love while you have them. That’s all you can do. Let them go when you must. If you know how to love, you’ll never run out.” —Ann Brashares, My Name is Memory

LOVE WHO YOU LOVE WHILE YOU HAVE THEM

WHILE YOU HAVE THEM

WHILE

YOU 

HAVE 

THEM

ang lonely lonely ko im

crying

idk what is this???

hormones????

bakit ang lonelyyyyy

Bakit ba hindi pa siya mamatay?????

petsa na!!!

I'm meeting someone tomorrow (sana matuloy! rain go away) and I'm excited

but 

i see the ex on my messenger list

with the green active button

and i

kinda

miss him

So natuloy and 

he's easily the girthiest i've been with ang hirap haha

but also the handsomest as in di ako naprepare ng photos niya as to how goodlooking he is in person

and that body jusque

model material siya talaga (and indeed nagmodel nga daw siya before in his own country haha)

but

he smokes

and ngayon ko lang naamoy buhok ko and!!!! amoy sogo - usok sigarilyo + karat smell ugh kakapit pala sayo yun nang wagas

never again to smokers!!!

(cheret feeling ko pupuntahan ko ulit siya soon)

siya yung tipong di mo masasabihan sarcastically ng "pogi ka?" kasi pota pogi talaga siya

I dub these feels:

Post-meaningless karat loneliness

Weird din ng casual sex no? Masarap lang while doing it, pero hindi naglilinger yung happiness

Parang wala lang kinabukasan

Very pantawid-loneliness lang

(Or you know, i need to properly date. Wag yung nauuwi sa kama agad)

Hmmm i could really like this one.

I surivive holiday singledom because: 

My happiness for other people's happiness is always greater than my crushing loneliness